The effects of constant turmoil can be burnout. I’ve experienced plenty in my life and in reality, I have “quit” the ministry many many times. The truth is though, I have never told anyone! This podcast purposes to talk a little about the issue of ministry fatigue, its causes, its purposes and most of all, its remedy.
Pastors, never forget the fragile state in which we live and serve. We are flesh, all of us, and must depend upon the mighty hand of God in all things. It is God who keeps us and holds us from the schemes of the enemy, the attacks of the world and the lust of the flesh. God in Christ Jesus seals us in holiness and steadfastness, gives us a heart to love the church of Christ with all the affection of Christ and allows us to find the greatest satisfaction amongst the deepest of suffering. We must never move our eyes from the glory of the one who can sit us upon the rock of righteousness and who has snatched us out of death, out of darkness and transferred us to the light of the Son and to the Kingdom therein. When this life is “able” we fail. When we look to our own holiness, we fail. When we feel content in our walk with Christ, we fail. When we subject our calling to the ways and ideals of this world, we fail. But even then oh brothers, Christ cannot fail and He will rescue us from the mundane, the philosophy of our minds, the brokenness of our discipline and the lacking of our zeal. Then our broken shards will cut through the dead flesh of men by the proclamation of Christ who sets the prisoners free by the blood poured from His own broken body. Remember that it is a gift of the miraculous grace of God when we suffer, when we mourn, when we are lowly so that our pride is put behind us and our very souls are endeavored to rest in His supreme hand.
May our boasting be in Christ and may our lives be a sacrifice to the praise of HIS glorious grace; not our own lest we labor for nothing. It is far better to be no one in any historical sense and to have the mount of calvary as our epitaph in an unmarked grave than to be honored by men and praised through generations only to realize we left trash to be burned at the coming of the Lord.
Rise up pastor, bow down pastor… the Lord is true.
As the Lord allows, I plan to release this book in January 2016. It chronicles my journey of faith, theologically, from birth to date and reveals just how harshly Reformed doctrine has affected me, my life and my family as well as my ministry. In the last ten years or so a movement has ensued that seems to be taking large groups of Evangelicals and dividing them from fellowship. I have experienced this first hand and in all honesty, have experienced hatred, hurt, death threats and the like while keeping quiet and tending to my own business.
My hope in this writing would be to allow the reader to journey with me, see what I see and then realize that everyone, no matter who they are, at one time or another has had a crisis of faith. During these times believers are to stand together, work with each other, pray for grace and reconciliation and see God work through it. Sadly, it hasn’t been the case. So, my crisis of faith resulted in major growth for my good, but it has been painful. Pray for me as I put the final touches to this text and pray that the message of the gospel would be paramount to it all.
For His Glory,
Well, if one had to know, I really have never written, just played around with some semi-quasi-halfway syntax and called it writing. The breath of my pen has exhaled with not even a vapor of expression remaining and at the end of this sentence I could stop and hit delete. Seriously, well… more like honestly, I don’t write much anymore because I have more drafts in books, files and on my blog than I actually have published. I look at everything I want to say and think, “I don’t really want to say it and if I did, I want it to be perfect.” To this I confess that I have a pride issue when it comes to writing.
Yes, pride. Not the, “look at my great prose and covet” but more like, “if I don’t get this perfect then I am a loser” pride. Yes, pride is the core reason I have not completed much of the writing that I really would like to publish. Two finished manuscripts, many pamphlets, articles galore and yet I sit here writing about how I don’t want to write. Now as I talk to myself about this issue I have several thoughts that are ringing in my ears that need to be pressed into the pad of this article. Why do I feel this way?
I believe the draw of “interaction” has overtaken the allure of intimacy in writing. Thorough and insightful script seems fruitless in today’s social sphere and if it can’t be said in 140 characters, it probably isn’t worth saying. No one is going to read it anyway.
BACKLASH AND NASTY PEOPLE
There is no more etiquette or politeness any longer among opinions and conversation has been devoured by the cookie monster of “hear me, hear me” to the point that most people with anything useful are fearful of having to deal with all the mess. Even if the comments are off, it doesn’t take the heat away. I especially enjoy the rebukes and wickedness poured over people’s heart-felt testimonies as if anyone ever asks for input in the first place.
YOU DIDN’T SAY THAT
In the end with everything being said, it’s hard to actually have an original thought. In today’s googley circles, nothing is precious and there are some out there that would rather steal words than anything else. Who cares? Well, let’s just say if someone who stands against everything you ever did stole your words then someone else found them in your mouth, you would be quoting them right? Meh.
LEARNING VS LAUGHING VS LOOTING
Writing for the sake of teaching is mainly what I enjoy, but it seems that people would rather laugh or take advantage of a controversy and “loot” the wave to the center of “likes” and “&^%$@#&^!@” listed on their blogs and social pages. Come on, who doesn’t enjoy having 4893 friends that they have never met comment and like what they didn’t even say to begin with but shared what someone else didn’t say about what someone else said about what their other friend who they never met said about what they didn’t hear anyone say. You know?
At the core of it all though is the fear that something is too precious and glorious to waste. That the object at the tip of the pen is so concerning with divinity and the beauty of ineffable majesty that no amount of paper and ink could do it justice. It seems that sometimes it just cannot be said rightly so is it better to not say it at all? I think this is truly where I sit, worrying about whether or not my service to the glory of God and His word, doctrine, et al in my writing is even effectual to the praise of His glorious grace. Is it even going to partner with His purpose to engage the mind of the saints to a greater seeing of His wonder?
You know what? It doesn’t matter. If nothing else, a partnering with God’s great work in small and piece-milled ways will outshine the grandest of debates on the most divisive issues of man. The majesty of Grace will devastate the minds of Americans who work to the end of their fingers to produce yet another wasted effort against the grain of the cross of Jesus Christ. The smallest drop of blood from the Savior is heavier and weightier than the chasm of the cosmos and the doxology of silence in the face of Holiness is louder than the highest gathering of the greatest people for the greatest cause.
So, I desire to write for the glory of God, for an audience beyond my knowledge and sight and to do what I can, if nothing else, to catalogue the Master’s fingerprint of my own heart as I encourage all the saints to do the same. What would happen if the children of God for one season all praised Him in their words? I cannot even imagine.
For His Glory by His Grace,
This series contemplates the reality that in so many circumstances, the people of God act and live as though the Gospel has no power in their lives and in as much, the Gospel must not work. Over eight weeks in preparation for the “Horrors of Christmas” (wrath, judgement, horror and hell) series, we have discovered that the Gospel IS power in the life of the church and when we fail to rest by faith in the gospel of Christ, we are the problem, not Christ. Worship with us through this look and pray as God prepares us to move into Titus in January.